I am consumed in this white noise!
I just put a timer of 30 minutes on my phone to walk for a bit. Some time in, I had the sudden urge to check how much time was left. It got me questioning: Can’t I even, for half an hour, be without my phone or some outside stimulation?
I mean, sure, I was checking the time left because knowing how much time is left makes it easier for me to continue. It gives me an end goal that I know I can achieve. But still! The discomfort I was in just because I didn’t have anything in my hand makes me sad. It makes me feel weak and in control of these stupid urges.
I feel like I’m stuck in a trap made by these stimuli. It’s extremely frustrating that I have evolved into a person who can’t eat food without watching a video, can’t workout without music, and can’t read without having light music in the background. This concept of white noise has taken over my life and I didn’t even realize it.
On top of that, the overload of information doesn’t let me actually register anything in my mind. This constant feeling of wanting to soak up knowledge or entertainment of any sort is exhausting. When I am accidentally left alone, that is when I get to see how addicted I am to all this. I don’t want to be like this. I don’t want to be in control of something that is leaving me drained.
Are you in the same boat as me? Do you also notice yourself getting addicted to this white noise? And it’s not that I didn’t know I was doing this. It’s just that I’ve actively started noting these habits. This analysis is making me feel so undisciplined and out of control.
Do you have any ways in which this spoiled brat inside me can be tamed? Drop the ways to get rid of this white noise addiction down below in the comments.
Until next time, Adios amigo!
Sometimes we are consumed by white noise because we are trying to overcome a void or a silence. In times like this, we need to change our perspective. I want you to read about this one time when thinking differently helped me HERE!
