I went to an astrologer and I was left offended.
I really believe in astrology, numerology, vastu, palmistry, etc. Mostly because when I was a kid and we used to get newspapers every morning, the first thing that I would do was flip the pages of HT city to the horoscope page. Being a Scorpio excites me so much that till this day I check my horoscope.
Now this concept of personal readings or an astrologer, I feel, is an extension of horoscope. My mom is really interested in palmistry and she keeps learning all this from YouTube. She has even decided to give this field a full shot after retiring from her job. So she started looking at the hands of my cousins, my relatives, just to sharpen her skills and her intuition.
Being a control freak, this chance of knowing the future or having a hint at what could happen later in life makes me more interested. Although my mom (a potential astrologer) doesn’t do my reading, I still don’t know why. I recently met someone who did. It was my mom’s friend’s sister. She is a trained professional in this field and when I met her, she started analyzing me from the get-go.
I won’t go into details but she was pretty spot on for the things that had happened with me in the past. She went over a few characteristics and traits that I have and the line of career I should be in to be more successful. But she said something that left me completely offended.
The astrologer said, “First you say NO to things or opportunities, then after a lot of deliberation you say YES with doubt. Am I right?” I was so stunned that I couldn’t give an answer to her. For a minute I couldn’t decide if I should be honest with her or should I just change the topic or completely deny the fact that she had just pressed on my painful nerve.
Between you and me, she said nothing but the truth. And my explanation is that I get so scared when something new or something out of my comfort zone comes my way that I just reject it. I’m so against the idea of exploring or not being good enough at something in my head that I just shut it down completely. Honestly, I don’t even know who I’m trying to impress or hide away from.
But it came as a shock to me and facing reality seemed really difficult at that time. I kind of knew I had this insecurity and slapping this revelation at my face was new. I was ashamed, to say the least, because I was surrounded by mom and her astrologer friends. It is not really a quality anyone would want. The description she gave screamed “low self-confidence” and “extremely high self-doubt.” And frankly, I didn’t want to agree to that. But I laughed it off and gave her a secret nod. All the things she said after that weren’t really of much importance to me because this one line stuck with me.
Of course I can’t blame the astrologer for giving me a reality check. The only thing I could do was get angry at myself, so I did. I still am and will be till the day I can change this habit of mine. But all of this made me realize there are things that you are hiding inside of you. You think that you are hiding it quite well, but let me tell you, it’s shining through.
So it’s better to not cover it up. It’s better for you to face your insecurities and settle them once and for all. Because if, by chance, you sit on a table with an astrologer, remember that they can read you like an open book. Beware!
Until next time, Adios amigo!
One thing I really believe in apart from astrologers and that is horoscopes. I am a scorpio and to read about how scorpios are as people and the traits they have, click HERE!
