Let yourself break down.
Have you noticed that whenever something tragic happens, some of us become really firm? I’m one of those people. Being the elder daughter, I have always been taught that we can be emotional later. First, we need to tackle the situation and bring everything around us back to normal. I am reminded that I can’t break down in the moment and somehow have it to first figure it all out.
When we get into this habit of keeping our feelings aside and covering them up, we forget that we have to sort them out later. We literally build a wall around ourselves to cover up our trauma. And then suddenly, one fine day, when we are all happy and bubbly, tears start to roll down our eyes. At that moment, you don’t understand why this is happening, but it’s actually all the trauma stacked up.
Once in a while, break every wall that you have built around you to protect yourself. Sometimes there need to be no barriers between you and the universe. That is the time when you can just sit on a chair and weep, vent, complain, and praise everything that is going on around you.
I’m a person who usually has her guard up at almost all times. That is because I don’t trust anyone easily. But once I’m in my room, in my sacred space, I let go of all this weight on my shoulders. I strip my mind of all the negativity, self doubt, and self-hatred. I let myself be vulnerable. Life is constantly going to give you loads to carry.
It is our job to give our bodies and minds the time and energy they need to unload, process, and then go on. It is our job to break those damn walls down and let ourselves breathe. Imagine constantly filling your cup without taking a chance of emptying it out. Yeah, no thanks!
Until next time, Adios amigo!
When I let myself break down, I think about things that I would generally avoid. One of these things is death. You can read about my deep reflections on the impact of death HERE!
