Watching Kota Factory brought back all my student memories.
When I finished watching Kota Factory Season 3, it brought back the feeling that I had never given my all to something, just like the students who prepare for an entrance do. The stress of the preparation, the pressure of the examination and the anticipation of the result. I have felt a bit of it, but not to the same extent as the students who genuinely strive to live for the exams. I commend those with such dedication.
But at the same time, I feel empty inside. I question myself and my abilities. Because I never tried, I never got to know if or not I’m the type of student who can have so much focus or not. Maybe my mind fixates on other things, and I’m able to put my all into other things. But the nerdy side of me has always wanted to be one of the toppers. Have you felt the need to prove yourself in studies?
Do you also feel the need to be well-read and an expert in some field? I’m a biology student through and through and that makes it even more difficult for me to decide. I know I can study, but I also know that I can’t study enough. It’s a dilemma, I know. I just need to satisfy this desire of mine. The desire and yearning I have for learning things and facts.
Maybe I just get scared when I see others doing better. Maybe I compare myself too much with them and then I lose all hope of becoming better. I will let you know once I figure it out. Till then, tell me if you feel the same! Have you been in the same situation before? How did you handle these insecurities? How do you just take a leap of faith in one single field as a multipassionate person?
Until next time, Adios amigo!
My relationship with entrance exams is really interesting. I have technically tried to prepare for 3 different exams and it hasn’t ended well. You can read this story HERE!
